奇迹...

每当我看着妳的眼睛, 我等待的是奇迹...

每当我想起妳的溫柔, 心理就會不知覺得想見到妳..

我只想陪着妳, 看這妳, 守護妳...把我的心交給妳...

我不需要原因...也不需要理由...

我只在呼妳的未來...並想帶給妳快乐和辛福...

現在的我...最怕的是妳給的祝福...

可是我還是想說 '' 我喜歡妳…"

並想勇敢的愛這妳...

happy bday to myself~!

kekek 1st time ever that my bday is on GOOD FRIDAY~!
so might as well take the chance to wish myself... 0_0 \/

"tks for those who remembered =) "

hahah as usual...like always... i guess my family has totally forgotten abt it kekek but it's oky keke they all are busy with work and stuffs so it's alright...i'm happy enough to have them...with or without a celebration or a cake. BUT i WANNA MAKE A WISH....


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******WISH~!******
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kekke wishes are suppose to be a secret rite =P...

hahah yea...how wonderful ya...i'm actually studying IM on my bday....sheesh...



i am missing you...

when ever i see you cry...
i want it to be tears of joy...
but when ever it's the tears of sorrow...
i'll be there to collect them till tomorrow...
and i'll be there each and everyday...
because you meant so much to me in a special way...



"Any gift from you is always the best gift...

because....

it's a gift from the best gift i have ever received..."




no one can ever replace what you have built inside of my heart... =)

IF only we could live twice....

don't break down yet...
don't give up yet...
we've come so far...
almost 3 years of our life...
For this final moment of testifying...

don't be sad...
don't be stressed...
because we all have similar feelings...
but what the hack...
just give all we've got!!!
and move on without looking back...


" Nobody told me we'd only get one chance...
neither did i know that time would turn so fast...
IF only we could live twice...
then i would make you proud each & everyday...
just like what you told me the other day..."

" you gave me courage & will...
and I'll be your shinning knight...
with a shield of commitment in my left...
& a heart of sword in the right...
I'll protect you through this life..."

Gav shouts " from this day forth!! i shall become one of the strongest!....one of the most dependable!!! one of the most emotionally stable guy!!....i promise!"


yesterday was really kinda a turing point for me thanks to a friend of mine...unexpectedly it helped me to realise alot of things...and that i have to be stronger than who i am now in order to be better in her eyes...

i finally know the path that i should take and i'm giving all i've got to achieve it! though it may not be easy...but i'm not intening to give up one single bit! because giving up on myself would be giving up on you too...

我仿佛被另一個自己撕裂...不知那一個才是真正的自己...我想尋找屬於自己的世界...


We have different forms of eyes…
but we all look under the same sky…
your eyes can't keep ur feelings inside...
and my expressions can't be kept alive...
my heart beats each and every day...
while waiting for life to be drained away...
i maybe young at age...
but i'm old in this very stage...
what is this that i am feeling...
that sometimes makes life so meaning....
and at the same time so tiring...

cannon ball...

if you're floating like a cannon ball...

then i will always be the ever elastic and comfortable net...

that will prevent you from falling through...

Song Intro --> Almost here...by brian mcfadden & delta goodrem...

Did I hear you right (GUY)
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you...

Shadows bleeding through the light (GUY)
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?...

But when I need you (Girl)
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here...

I would change the world (GUY)
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me...

Bruised and battered by your words (GUY&GIRL)
Dazed and shattered how it hurts
Haven't I always loved you...

But when I need you (GIRL)
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here

Bruised and battered by your words (GUY&GIRL)
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you...

But when I need you (GUY&GIRL)
You're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind i'd left you
And when I hold you your almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you...I'm close to tears
'cause I know I'm almost here
Only almost here...


"describes so much of us...that it hurts but at the same time it gives me strength to carry on because i know i'm almost here...but not only almost...cause i want to be here...for you...always..."

1.45 am...

At this point of time....i just have a sudden feeling...a sudden urge of just shouting out..that i want you to know that i'm not giving up just yet~! i'm not giving up on myself and i'm not giving up on what i have!!

i wanna continue in believing in myself and believe in what my eyes and soul see...

a meaningfull sentence...

hahah as usual...i'm here cause i can't really slp or i realised somethings worth to remember...
just came across a sentence that meant so much to me...that speaks so much of me...

" There's more to me than i like to show..."


this sentence alone stands by itself and explains by itself....and the meaning behind the sentences means so much more than what we can usually comprehend... i shall leave it
as it is now...to let those who stumble across to ponder about....nitez...

seeing you unhappy today really makes my heart ache...
I've never seen you so down...
and i really wish i could help...
but i know i would be bringing more trouble than harm...
and i deserve to be called dumb...

i really want to see you happy...
and i really want to make you smile...
but i know deep inside you would want me to be happy and be the real me...
you would want me to find the real me...
i'm trying very hard to understand...
but there are just some things i can't comprehend...

seeing you happy and finding the real me is what i really want to see...

一個沒資格去愛別人的人...

Been thinking a lot recently…and I’m really lost and still lost…deep down inside I’m still as unhappy as the first time I came in…maybe it’s cause I didn’t get what I want to get…I didn’t find what I wanna find…or maybe I care too much about how others see me as…

Sum how in the process, I’ve lost myself and now I don’t have my own identity…I really wish there really is sum1 who can tell me what you see in me and what do my eyes tell you…

Someone told me not to depend on others to make myself happy…and I finally understood the meaning of it…I donno since when, I always try to be lame and joke around to make people laugh so that some how, I can feed on their happiness and be happy as well…but then the fact is that I’m running away from reality…the fact is that happiness comes from within oneself…

And that you can never bring another person happiness when you yourself aren’t even happy at all…


I’m actually laughing at myself and happy that I was rejected because I wasn’t fit to love anyone at all because I did not understand the above concept…and even if I do now…I don’t know where my happiness is or where it lies…

I’m too ashamed to face my group mates or even my friends or those who I really care a lot…sometimes I thought of isolating from them so that it would be better…but I don’t wanna be irresponsible and throw them aside…

Like I always say…it’s not nice to know me too well or even know me at all…because all I ever bring is sorrow and sadness…and I take away peoples happiness…