No better than him...or maybe even worse...

Why can't i listen...
When will i ever learn...
i realised i'm no better than him...
or even worse....

You couldn't do much because he wasn't there...
I was here but couldn't listen at all...
How more stupid can i ever be...
To not be able to understand what you have been trying to tell me...

I really do appreciate the times spent...
but i took it over the top...
so much that you pratically flopped...

I'm disappointed with myself...
for not listening...
for making it rain...
for not appreciating what i have once again...
as though i don't even deserve what i have...

I really want to learn...
Can you tell me how...
Can you teach me how...

I ever had the chance to ask...
But i always took it to pass...
Tell me what to do...
Im still your sheep to lead...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aT434G38OBg

Bed...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RJFcBVGyibc

Uh huh, uh huh, bed, bed, bed, bed
Put you to bed, bed, bed, bed
Put you to bed, bed, bed, bed
Girl change into that Victoria's Secret thing that I like
Alright, Okay
Tonight your having me your way
Perfume, spray it there
Put our love in the air
Now put me right next to you
Fittin' to raise the temp in the room
First rub my back like you do
Right there, uh-uh, right there uh
You touch me like you care
Now stop& Let me repay for the week that
you been through
Working that 9-5 and staying cute like you do
oh, oh, oh

I love it (I love it)
You love it (You love it)
Every time (Every time)
We touchin (We touchin)
I want it (I want it)
You want it (You want it)
I'll see you (I'll see you)
In the morning (In the morning)

Wanna put my fingers through your hair
Wrap me up in your legs
& love you till your eyes roll back
I'm tryin to put you to bed, bed, bed
I'mma put you to bed, bed, bed
Then I'ma rock your body
Turn you over
Love is a warI'm your soldier
Touchin you like it's our first time

I'mma put you to bed, bed, bed
I'ma put you to bed, bed, bed

I'm staring at you while you sleep
Irreplaceable beauty
Pull my face up in your neck & breathe (awww breathe)
Take you into my senses
Wake up, it's time to finish
Round two, It's round two
Matter of fact it's closer to three
She like, "How long I been sleep?"
Shorty, kisses turn into the sweetest dreams
Like give it to me
& I can feel her tell me
My angel this is wonderful

Thanks for letting me bless ya
Come down, fly, right, drift back into heaven
Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh

I love it (I love it)
You love it (You love it)
Every time (Every time)
We touchin (We touchin)
I want it (I want it)
You want it (You want it)
I'll see you (I'll see you)
In the morning (In the morning)

When I put my fingers through your hair
Wrap me up in your legs
& love you till your eyes roll back
I'm tryin to put you to bed, bed, bed
I'mma put you to bed, bed, bed
Then I'ma rock your body
Turn you over
Love is a warI'm your soldier
Touchin you like it's our first time
I'mma put you to bed, bed, bed
I'ma put you to bed, bed, bed

Watch the sunlight peek over the horizon
Ou-Ou, Ou-Ou, Ou-Ou, Ou-Ou
The sun aint the only thing that shining
Ou-Ou, Ou-Ou, Ou-Ou, Ou-Ou
Now I'mma send you out into the world with my love
Tell everybody aye, aye, aye [x10]

Ps: for you : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r8jhUyhSOMw (remix)

30 mins to dias valentine...

30 minutes to valentines day...unfortunately i will be stepping into it alone.. =) Havn't really spent or celebrated valentines day as awhole before so i don't really know how it's like...

but anyway...i just want to dedicate this song to those out there...in love...out of love...making love...1 song fits all....

MTV
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G3OFr6jJ2Ks&feature=related

Live
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u7QIb_0E2j0&NR=1

It still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss and
It's gettin' better baby
No one can better this
I'm still holdin' on and you're still the one
The first time our eyes met it's the same feelin' I get
Only feels much stronger and I wanna love ya longer
You still turn the fire on

So If you're feelin' lonely.. don't
You're the only one I'd ever want
I only wanna make it good
So if I love ya a little more than I should

Please forgive me I know not what I do
Please forgive me I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me
This pain I'm going through
Please forgive me
If I need ya like I do
Please believe me
Every word I say is true

Please forgive me I can't stop loving you

Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch
We're still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough
I'm still holdin' on
You're still number one
I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all your moves
I remember you
I remember the nights ya know I still do

One thing I'm sure of
Is the way we make love
And the one thing I depend on
Is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath
I'm prayin'
That's why I'm sayin'...

Thanks ah meng...

Was looking at some past photos and found this candid shot of ah meng and her young or grandchild i guess...just taken like 1 year ago...looks like she got the "kangroo spotlight" on her or more like she's trying to say "Oh mY gaWd!...i'm on camera!"

Though she's gone now...i would still like to thank her and her animal friends who brought so many wonderful memories to everyone of us...

Poem for Ah Meng:

Sitting on a banana tree...

I wonder how my life would be...

Swinging around freely...

Away from the naughty chimpanzees...

To long was i living in an enclosure...

Now i'm finally able to wonder...

Into the hands of heaven...

Where i can safely pray...

And watch my children from becoming preys...

Do not moan for me...

For it's how life's gonna be...

Take a look around...

As there's many still yet to be found...

Like You'll Never See Me Again

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L-WZG-y2e9k


says it all..

happy valentines...

happy valentines...to you and you...and especially you...who has been constantly reading this blog about the life of someone that will never make sense...but it shows tt it either becomes a habit or curiousity or just out of concern...

is it really true that somethings are better left unsaid..tt somethings should always be kept to oneself...what if the truth is all it matters...that hidding will never solve a problem...

given a choice...i will always want the truth...but wanting the truth means you must be prepared for anything and everything that may come out or may happen...


i can pretend to be ignorant...
i can pretend to be bliss...
would you actually know....
could you actually see...
My question still stands as today...
What do you see from my eyes of dismay...

enough said about all this...it's suppose to be a valentines day...and wishes should be said...
whether it's the past or present you...i just want to thank you... because my happiness came from you...\ \_ _/...125...

3) Everyday

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MWYCYQ4rVRE


2) Gotta go my own way

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gm5DHKI8o5o&feature=related (MTV)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jbKk0Ghv3a4&feature=related (Clear version)


3) When there was me and you

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FsGF98zQsaI

Untitled..

我承認我的過錯…
錯的好離譜….
錯的好失望…

Was attending my entrepreneur lesson today and my lecturer wanted to spell “Aerometric” but she spelled “Aeromatric” instead and she asked if it was correct and I thought it was hahah turns out it’s suppose to be an E instead of an A…so some of the classmates laughed and my lecturer was pretty smart by rubbing the word off the whiteboard…she then said something that took me aback…

“Isn’t life just amazing...see how easily we can just wipe away our mistakes…”
“you know, a lot of people actually carry so much burden behind them that they just cannot let go of their mistakes”

“I mean if you make a mistake just try again la…” or something similar…but what got me really thinking was the fact that I would partially agree with her to a certain extent…that mistakes can actually be wiped away easily… but how do we retain the lessons learnt…or what if we do not want to wipe away the mistakes in fear of wiping away the memories…?



I see free spirits beside me roaming around the world…
But I chose to bound mine to the face of this earth…
I see what others don’t…
And do what others won’t…
But I am no different than any other…
Because I breathe the same air that you’ll did…

Expectations = Hope

To expect is to hope...

I have expectations is because i have hope from things...hope from people...

To me, not having any expectations is to give up hope...

and i do not give up on hope easily...

Because hope is what that keeps people alive...

So tell me..how can i not expect....

Corrine May - Shelter

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KCrfa_v5Uq8

What's wrong, what's getting you down?
Is it something I might have said?
You're walking around
With your head to the ground
And your eyes are watery red
I know you've been through tough times
Kicked around, thrown to the ground
But you've always been the strong one
So don't tell me that nobody gets you'
Cause I'm standing in your corner
Knocking at your door
You don't have to be alone
Just call my name
Let me be an answer
'Cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter, my friend

We share a bond, you and I, we belong
We're like coffee and morning train
You strip my defenses
I catch your pretenses
The same blood runs through our veins
I swore I'd be your lifeline
Made a vow that I'd surround you
With love at every milestone
I'll listen when nobody gets you
I'm still standing in your corner
Waiting by your door
You don't have to be alone

Just call my name
Let me be an answer
'Cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter, my friend

It was not too long ago
You sought to understand
You helped me mend
Remember when
So promise me you'll call my name
Let me be an answer
'Cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter, my friend

HINDER - Better Than Me...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mr4VEbt4zSw

I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies that I made you believe
Guilt kicks in and I start to see
The edge of the bed
Where your nightgown used to be

I told myself I won't miss you
But I remember
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures I took
That you were looking forIf there's one memory I don't want to lose
That time at the mall
You and me in the dressing room

I told myself I won't miss you
But I remember
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend...
I won't think about you when I'm older
Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end

I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
(And I think you should know this)
(You deserve much better than me)