Let time cease to exist at this point in time...
Let sleep fall into the island of mines...
And dig out courage that looks like a dime...
For size isn’t all that matters...
As long as the actions do not flutter...

life...

tired is just a fragment of life...

giving up is a part and puzzle of life...

letting go is a decision in life....

I am experiencing the 3 aspects of life...

So life isn't always that great issn't it...

yes..and yet again...why do i always find it so hard for people to listen to me....1 thing i can cmf is that there are people who don't believe in me or trust me...the one thing that i really don't understand is that...

Have i ever lead them to failure or down the wrong path..? I have always been very precise and i admit that I demand alot..especially from myself but it has been proven time and again that I was right...but yet people still do not believe and chose to differ...

sometimes it's damm fustrating to get things clear across people's mind because they don't even consider my inputs and they think they're always right...even up to the point that they have been proven wrong! DAMMIT man! and even after they have been proven wrong they still DO IT!! PLAIN STUBBORN RITE? sounds like myself..but at least the effect is only limited to myself!! i DO NOT let it affect others!!!

The ultimate worst thing is that when guidelines are putforth...people amazingly don't follow...which I think is because the person did not read, did not understand or clearly refuse to accept it which i thought was plain STUPID! Yes i do support being innovative and doing things different from the norm..but not when the criteria and guidelines are given!! That's damm plain bloody suisidal to a point that sometimes i really feel like screaming...

Do you really look down on my ability to conceptualise and analyse things..? Or do u just think ur plain smartter or that damm good!? For the Record I AM TT DAMM GOOD! i am not being egoistic but at least i know I am better because it was and still IS proven!!

And then there are others who do not care or do not make an effort to...i may have high expectations of others but tt's because I believe in them! but sometimes people just disappoint which i really don't understand and i cannot believe because the answer was staring at them all along..all they had to do was to read more clearly!!! Other times i would hope people would just admit that they copied the whole thing and let people know..at least we can understand and rephrase it...

And there are also times when I just wanna complain and I just want someone to listen! just listen!..i think sometimes i'm like a lady as well..hahha...need to bitch...that's why this post is here for...to bitch!

I SERIOUSLY DON'T NEED PEOPLE TO REBULK BECAUSE THIS IS MY BLOG..MY THINKING...IF U DON'T LIKE IT..U CAN EITHER SHOVE IT UP UR ASS OR BITCH ABOUT IT IN UR OWN MIND OR WHAT EVER SHIT IT IS STOP READING IT!...BECAUSE U HAVE NO RIGHTS TO JUDGE ME!

sometimes i do really think i'm walking alone....because seldom people do see what i see or support me...but when i know i'm right and confident i bring results for others to share...especially to those who belive in me...

Ralph Waldo Emerson

It is the secret of the world that all things subsist and do not die, but only retire a little from sight and afterwards return again....


to think i got this from the obituaries!...damm he's good!

rebuking

i'm not gonna arrange my damm thoughts like how i use to with my posts, so I might as my jolly god damm ass well blast off!...

hello my friend (blog)...it's been a long time since i last spoke to you...i guess this is the place where i won't get rebuked...the place where I can just say what i wanna say cause i just feel like for no particular reason..because sometimes u just don't need too!

it maybe me..but i feel that sometimes when ur up for a discussion, you jolly well make sure that ur prepared for it and not just blast off from what you think! to make matters worse...for goodness sake at least have the decency to read the damm guidelines!...sometimes I would really hope that arguements or discussions are made when everyone has read and have tried to understand that was written...then at least when discussing or arguing, there is a basis to fall back on!

How can you believe or trust people who you know hasn't really prepared even though they maybe correct?? Some people may be able to do so but I damm won't because I don't think it is a good risk at all...I need to be convinced..have strong back ups, evidence...PROVE to me! AT LEAST I WON"T HAVE DAMM DOUBTS!!...and most importantly you do not have to redo the whole damm thing...

The fucking irratitng thing is that if you don't have the money to buy a text book u fucking borrow it and read it! It doesn't matter if ur rich or not! It's whether u have the initiative or will to do it! I may have the money but it doesn't mean I bloody buy all the books! I ALSO BORROWED! DAMM IT!

I think I've really had it..I feel like just washing my hands off things and just do whats required...I don't even know why I care so much...OR MAYBE IT"S BECAUSE I HAVE TO PASS ALL MODULES TO JOLLY WELL GRADUATE AND THERE"S A WHOLE FUCKING PRESSURE ON ME THAT PEOPLE DON"T EVEN UNDERSTAND!

you may not like it but i have my own reasons! issn't it enough! Sometimes you just want to share your thoughts to someone else...JUST SHARING because you already know it wouldn't happen because it's not the bloody first time that anyone has listened!

Yes i admit that sometimes i wouldn't listen as well! but hey at least the consequences is that i'm suffering myself and not anyone else! I am those who need to fall and learn...trial and error...NOT someone who is directed and told...THAT"S ME!

I AM TIRED...but i just want to continue to read and study...because i want to prepare myself

DONT YOU FUCKING HATE IT WHEN THE HOLIDAYS IS COMMING AND SOMETHINGS JUST HAPPENS AND MAKE IT GO ROTTEN LIKE SHIT ASS...i don't blame people because it's how they are...and i hate the fact that I can't change it...

What's said has been said...i don't wanna bring it up anymore. PERIOD!

TO CALL IS TO DISCUSS

TO DISCUSS IS TO PLAN

some just don't get it...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aTod6ecTzUg

When Love and Hate Collide

You could have a change of heart
If you would only change your mind
Instead of slamming down the phone girl
For the hundredth time

I got your number on my wall
But I ain't gonna make that call
When divided we stand baby
United we fall

Got the time got a chance gonna make it
Got my hands on your heart gonna take it
All I know, can't fight this flame

You could have a change of heart
If you would only change your mind
Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby
Time after time

Without you
One night alone
Is like a year without you baby
Do you have a heart of stone
Without you
Can't stop the hurt inside
When love and hate collide

I don't wanna fight no more
I don't know what we're fighting for
When we treat each other baby
Like an act of war
I could tell a million lies
And it would come as no surprise
When the truth is like a stranger
Hits you right between the eyes

There's a time and a place and a reason
And I know I got a love to believe in
All I know got to win this time

You could have a change of heart
If you would only change your mind
Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby
Crazy - Crazy

Without you
One night alone
Is like a year without you baby
Do you have a heart of stone

Without you One night alone
Is like a year without you baby
If you have a heart at all
Without you
Can't stop the hurt inside
When love and hate collide