Cruel...

If you choose to read this on…
then promise me that you’ll not be affected upon…
This is my only remaining place…
Where I can express my frustrations to date…
Please don’t take them away…
Or never will there be much more to say…


Each and every minute…
Each and every second…
He feels like he’s being torn apart…
Till a point where there no longer is a heart…
Bleeding deep down inside…
Where no one could ever realize…
How much he puts on his disguise…


He tore 2 women’s heart…
2 most important people he never wanted to part…
They were his pillars of support…
For which he could never resort…
He finally understood being not qualified…
And it has been certified…
(How cruel…can I be…?
Killing what’s inside of me…?)
If life was ever like this…
Then he would rather choose not to live…
He knows it’s impossible…
Because he’s responsible…
Not just of his life…
But also for his future wife…
He doesn’t need sympathy to date…
But rather anger and hate…
He doesn’t deserve what he has…
Because the fact that he’s an ASS…

He believed that he was never wrong…
Believing that they were always strong…
What he saw in their eyes…
Can never tell a lie…
He wished to not be able to “see” again…
To end all chapters of this game…
He hopes they can really become friends…
Then together they might be able to understand…
Why they should never fall in love with this man…

He doesn’t want anyone to take the blame…
Because we never knew how it came…
He knows they are still very strong…
And asks them to keep holding on…
Right now he doesn’t deserve any help…
But only to depend on himself…
“Give me a few days” he said…
“Hopefully by then I'll be ready to operate…”
“Probably...stronger than you will ever speculate...”